Austin Hesse Memorial website
This memorial website was created to remember our dearest Austin Hesse who passed away on August 24, 2006. You will live forever in our memories and hearts.
On behalf of the family I would like to thank each and every visitor here and ask you to take the time to read the entire site. This site is not only dedicated to the memory of Austin but also to spread the word of the horrors of meth addiction. Feel free to give this link to anyone who might benefit from it.
Thank you for all the kind words. Our hearts and prayers go out to all of you who are battling your own addictions or trying to deal with the addictions of your loved ones.
You may contact me by clicking the link at the bottom of this page and I will be happy to forward any appropiate material to the immediate family.
This may be the story of one man's addiction but it is the story of a whole country's battle to gain our live and the lives of our children back.
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For all of our family and friends that have stood by Austin in his struggles over the years, we thank you. Austin thanks you.
For all of the people that turned away as if we were a bad situation and needed to be avoided, we hope that Austin's memories will touch a part of your heart and help you to reach out to others in need and recognize kindness and how drugs can take over someone lives. To be more compassionate humans.
Please take a stand in the fight against drugs, especially Crystal Meth. It kills and it destroys everything and everybody around it.
Austin's memory will live on forever in the hearts of everyone that knew him. In the hearts of everyone that knows how drugs can take over a life. For Austin, please don't blame him, it wasn't his fault. We will love him forever.
God Bless all of you!
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Supportive links
http://www.kci.org/
http://www.scotty-simmons.memory-of.com
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
Clinton County Iowa Substance Abuse Help
Please Call New Directions: 563-243-2124
METH
I destroy homes I tear families apart
Take your children and thats just the start.
Im more costly than diamonds, More precious than
gold
the sorrow I bring will be a sight to behold.
If you need me , remember Im easily found
I live all around you in schools and in town
I live with the rich I live with the poor
I live down the street and maybe next door
Im made in a lab , but not like you think
I can be made under your kitchen sink
In your childs closet and in the woods
If this scares you to death it certainly should.
I have many names but theres one you know best
Im sure you heard of me , my name is Crystal Meth
MY power is awesome, try me you'll see
but if you do you may never break free
Just try me once and I might let you go
But try me twice and I'll own your soul
When I possess you , you'll steal and you'll lie
You do what you have to just to get high
The crimes youll commit for my narcotic charms
will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms
You'll lie to your mother and still from your dad
When you see their tears you should feel sad
but you'll forget your morals and how you were raised
I'll be your conscience , I'll teach you my ways.
I take KIDS from parents and PARENTS from kids
I turn people from God and separate friends
I'll take everything from you , your looks and your pride
I'll be with you always , right by your side
You'll give up everything your family your home
your friends your money then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take untill you have nothing more to give, when Im finished with you ..you'll be lucky to LIVE.
If you try me bewarned-this is no game
If given a chance I'll drive you in sane.
I'll ravish your body , I'll controll your mind
I'll own you completely your soul will be mine
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed
The voices you'll hear from inside your head
The sweats the shakes the visions you'll see
I want you to know these are all gifts from me
But then its too late and you'll know in your heart
That you are mine and we shall not part.
You'll regret that you tried me they always do
But you came to me ..not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told
But you challenged my power and chose to be bold
You could have said "NO" and just walked away
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master , you'll be my slave
I'll even go with you , when you go to your grave.
Now that youv'e met me what will you do?
Will you try me or not? Its all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell.
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell
| Mom |
| Mom |
| Mom |
| Chris Lowster |
Anyone who needs help with meth addiction or just has questions, please visit my forum at: http://meth-kills.com/forum/
| Amanda Miller |
Thank you so much for sharing ur memories I am a recovering drug addict I have been clean for 2 years it has been a very long and hard struggle i didnt do the rehab program or the meetings i was strong enough to do it on my own. The drug almost took everything good out of my life I feel very lucky to have a family that never gave up on me. I am slowly getting to know myself again and Austins story really inspires me. My heart goes out to u and ur family and i hope u can reach as many ppl as possible before its too late for them. U will be in my prayers always ty so much for makin this web site i know it will help alot of ppl again thank u so much
Always Amanda
| robert | Never in vain |
My eyes cry for you and your family.My 2 daughters now 23 and 20.Lived with
a dad addicted to speed off and on for years..What a selfish act it was..
My heart is softened more today by your loss.I am 84 days clean and
never looking back.They have learned from my ways.God has granted
me the courage to change the things I can.And I am.
Your family is in my heart forever.
| Soledad from Argentina | To Jill, Daniel and Bill |
I am from Argentina, I have been reading about this drug on the internet, we don t have it yet in here. Can not believe what this evil drug can cause. I am sorry for your loss, but I am sure he found the peace he coundn t find here.
Thanks you for having the courage to share your sons experience with others..
May Austin rest in peace!
Soledad from Argentina.
| Dessa Smith | You are in my heart and prayers |
| valerie | sorry but thank you |
to austin's mom:
i am sincerely sorry for the way austin's story ended. after only a three month addiction to meth, the struggle to quit using is extremely difficult and some days i wonder if the pain i feel in quitting is worth it. i read austin's memorial and the dedication you put into creating it. i envision my mother having to do go through the same kind of loss that you have endured and it almost makes my heart stop.
the pain i feel every single minute by quitting is definately worth it. (it has been three weeks since my last use--the LONGEST i have been clean since i was introduced to meth) i have been the worst person to my family and friends because of meth and mostly to my mom. i only continued to hurt her because she was one of the two people (the other was my dad) who refused to give up on me i am grateful to them for that. they stuck around long enough to see things get ugly. i was a different person when i was needing to get more meth. i am gratful to them for that.
jill-you're son, austin, has definately touched my heart. i know that my mother thanks you for reaching out.
| Angie Fallowfield | A lost soul |
Hi! My name is Angie and I am a greatful recovering addict! Clean and sober by Gods Grace and I am greatful I know that today! January 23, 2007 is a day I will never forget, and my soul was lost in active addiciton. I felt so hopeless, helpless, and lost. I felt my only option to quit using would be to end my life. I was on probation, and I knew I was gonna end up back in jail. I was in so much pain, and my life was so out of control. I had left a message to my therapist telling her I had taken some pills, and I had also left a suicide letter for her. I do not remember doing this, but I was told later. My therapist was even suppose to go into work that next day, and for some reason went in. She listened to my message, and called 911 right away! Paraamedicts found me unconscience on my bedroom floor, and I had been that way for several hours. They carried my lifeless body out, and later I would find out that I had died 9 times. I flatlined 9 times, and was on a breathing machine for 3 days. The only thing I remember is waking up with a tube down my throat, but my therapist was there by my bedside. Little would I know this would be the beginning of a new life, and a life I've never known. All I ever known was drugs and alcohol. I was in and out of treatment centers, hospitals, instutions, and even jail. The reality is that we can get help with an addiction, but until we are willing and ready that we will finally get the help we need. I died 15 months ago, but now I have another chance at life! I've been clean every since my overdosed, and I finally get to give back what was given to me! Thanks for letting me share!
